Week Two!  Well, the first day of week two!  Whoo-hoo!

We made it back from our camping trip, all got showered and rested.  Then spent the evening at a wonderful friends house celebrating his 50th birthday and now I’m laying on the couch watching the light change from day to evening outside.

I’ve been thinking a lot about how to organize, or if I need to organize this little blog of mine for the remainder of the year.  I think my main purpose for this gift of a Gap year is to find my inner voice again.  Find out what happens when I take away some of the “I have to” actions in my life and replace them with “I want to” actions.  And when did we stop listening to that voice?  That “I want to” voice.  Do we all stop listening to that voice?  It must be pretty commonplace for women to feel this way or we wouldn’t have posts like this littering our Facebook feed:

One thing I do know is that this Gap year will be different than the ones that kiddos take.  This year is not going to be filled with backpacking adventures though Europe, it’s not going to be centered on missionary work and I’m not really trying to figure out what I want to be when I “grow up”.  This year is going to be about looking back while moving forward.  Staying present while forging ahead.  Referencing the past while steering with confidence into the future.  Clear as mud, right?

So again, maybe I shouldn’t try to control this experience.  Control, see, it all comes down to control.  Bear with me, my friends, while I rumble, stumble and bumble through these next 357 days.  Together maybe we can shine the light on the path.  Stay tuned because I have no idea what tomorrow is going to bring (it’s out of my control) xxoo