Huckleberries!!  Yay, huckleberries!!  We here in northwestern Montana wait patiently all year long for these lovely purple berries to make their appearance.  And now is the time!

Aaron and I, along with my friend Angie trekked up the Danny On trail at Whitefish Mountain Resort today searching for our purple gold.  The hike up was easy and Aaron was (fairly) willing to trudge uphill.  After about a mile we found a great patch.  We each climbed up the slope and found our bushes and began picking

One of the things I am learning by being in the Gap is that these things that fill my soul have been here all along.  I haven’t picked hucks in years.  I haven’t done long hikes in years.  I haven’t had the energy in years.  Now I know that there are PLENTY of people out there that can do it all.  Work 50 hours a week, enjoy their family, have the time and energy to participate in activities that fill their soul.  I am just not one of them, yet.  Perhaps once I go so far with the pendulum swinging towards self, I will be able to figure out how to go back to work with some balance.  All I know is that I was not there before and I’m not going back until I learn to create some boundaries.

So choosing self and family has been the right choice for me….not for everyone and certainly not for the ones who can do it all.  But not being able to do it all is not a character flaw.  It’s just where I am right now and where I may always be.  So I will smile for the ones who can do it all and breathe for those of us who can’t and I will look up and see my sweet boy picking berries for the first time in years and know that I really do already have it all.  xxoo