Hello, Day Twenty-Three!  You may have noticed that Day Twenty-Two did not happen :/

Which brings me to an important lesson that I will be trying to learn while in the Gap.  There are several things I want to work on this year.  And so I am starting a new idea:  I give myself permission to …….

For example, today I give myself permission to not always stick to the goals I have laid out for myself.  Would I like to blog everyday?  Hells yeah!  Did I miss yesterday?  Hells yeah!  I’m I going to feel like I failed and I can’t finish anything I started?  Hells……um, yeah?

But I want that to be a no!  The fact is, I am doing me this year.  Imperfect, perfect me.  Which means I am going to mess up a lot.  Always have, always will.  But my reaction to the mess is what needs to be different.  In the past I would try to make excuses, try to place blame and berate myself for never following through on the goals I have in place.

I want to lose twenty pounds.  I am really going to stick to the budget this time.  I am going to walk 10,000 steps EVERYDAY.  And……best laid plans.  Sometimes it just doesn’t work out.  That is what makes me.  I can plan and try, you can plan and try and sometimes, well….we have all tried.

So here I am, back in the saddle.  I had a lovely day on a five hour float with an amazing and beautiful friend.  And I am curled up on the couch with the laptop on my lap and I will not beat myself up for yesterday.  Ehhhh, I tried.  But I am still smiling and breathing and I will try again tomorrow.  xxoo